Tell us about the experience of being outside, looking in — however you’d like to interpret that.
I’ve done that. Being outside and look inside.I kind of like that. Because with that I could see what others inside can’t see. I can see everything clearly. I like being outside, that way, I kind of more like being invisible. Nothing can hurt an invisible things, because no one can see it, right?
I never feel like belong inside, tho. It kinds of weird if I were inside. I feel a strange things in my stomach, like the urge to puke or headache, or stomachache. Everything in my body aches. But when I get out, I feel free. Because as this happened more and more often, I got more and more used to it, and learnt to be self-sufficient. I love listening to everyone’s words and keep my mouth shout, just to understand them more, or not. Being an outsider, being different, is what gives you a story to tell.
“In a field, I am the absence of field. This is always the case. Wherever I am, I am what is missing”
Mark Strand – Keeping Things Whole.